8 weeks but yet full of suffer. I guess every pregnant women will felt the same especially at early stage of pregnancy at 1st trimester. Because that's the time where you don't know what is going on in there.
The embryo is just a size of peanut, probably smaller or larger than that. Afterall.... indeed subsequent 2 weeks checking is torturing.
I'm supposed long distance travel ain't not a good choice for me, especially last check doc said I non stop having contraction. But due to pre family plan. I need to travel by car for about 2 hours journey and plenty of walks required. I praying so hard in my heart hope baby and God hear my prayer to let my baby grows in time. Trying my best to minimise my steps. Trying to reduce my anger. I had tried my very best.
A follow up check up today, my heart jumping like hot pot. I tried to be positive but never once I being calm. As mother, I don't feel different. It is a bad sign of it? I really don't know and hope someone would tell me.... I'm like having a playback video in my mind, talking to myself over and over again. Is s/he still there? Is s/he trying hard with me? Is It looking at blessing over for me? Did I do something wrong that harm him/her? I guess before the real time arrived, I had gone insane.
I tried to stay positive at the same time prepare the worst. I'm not sure how many mothers out there gone thru the same cycle. But I really wish I want to crying out loud. No one will know what I felt, the scared n worrieness.
Dear God, please listen to my prayer. All I want us a healthy baby in my hand with all my wishes and blessings.
"Crying out loud in my heart; tears dripped deeply in my heart:
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