First Brown Discharge

Over the weekend, I was lying on the bed from time to time, and my hubby works like a slave to me. At first when we got to know it present. I can't and not allow to work or overlook on our new house renovation which started in the middle of July. As again, during pregnancy, I am not allow to attempt any house renovation thingy.... to avoid any "unhappiness" happened on me or baby.
Then, my life of nausea starts, I start feeling vomit from time to time, and I can't eat at all. whatever I smell, it just stint to me. I just feel food are gross. Even i felt hungry, but i can't put anything in my mouth at all. I feel like i gonna puke anytime whenever I ate them. Bread, Milo and "chee cheong fun" are my surviving food. The rest... so sorry but i'm not going to touch them!
And now, I gonna back to work again! I should be blessed that I was called for field attachment with my senior to captured some experiences, and the senior was my ex, so in my mind, at least i can keep myself "relax" while I am expecting him to take good care of me.
God know it was a joke on me, he brought me for "bak kut teh" as my opening breakfast. Hello.... do you know I can't eat... especially.... eyeww.... it was pork, the most hatred food in my mind. I have no idea why i hate port so much, maybe my baby was HALAL. And again, i can't tell anyone... so i remain silent and ate them all.... oops.. rephrase.... I swallow them all. How i wish, i can wash all the porky from my mouth at that moment.

 

No Doubt, There are yummy!
Yet, it is still heavy for two persons for morning breakfast.

Few hours later, my good "senior" decided to bring me to Sekinchan.... for another branch visit. I had no choice but to follow his car. All went well.... until.... he told me, he gonna bring me and one of the HLB management lady for lunch.... this time, seafood... I wish i can knock at the wall... and fainted... I suffered from Bak Kut Teh now seafood. God knows, there are a lot of seafood which i can't take and restricted. 
How was the food? Hmm... How should i identified them in the way, fish is always fish.... squid is squid, there look the same to me. By closing my eyes, I "swallow" them all to ensure no one know my "secret". I admit they smell good, but for my morning sickness, they were "gross".

There are really good and served hot and fresh!
but when you are trying to bring a nausea pregnant women, better think twice, or it will ruins your appetite.

Somehow, everything seem good, and i took my two meals for the day.Until... while we were on the way back to Sekinchan branch, I felt something coming out from my vaginal. It doesn't seem right to me. Once i reached, i quickly ran to toilet, and what i saw... my first brown discharge, i was in a shocked. By immediate, I run to my senior (he was checking and in the mid of chatting with the management lady), but i need to nudge him with it. Therefore i whatsapp to him saying i need to rush to hospital, reason being i was brown discharging and im pregnant! He quickly make a move and sent me back to Setia Alam and simply find a clinic for checking. he called friends and clients who live there, to check for the nearest gynae.

Along the way, i cried badly, i text my hubby about my incident, and I trying my best to prepare the worst, at the same time, praying my baby is safe with me. Praying is the only choice for me at the moment and the best i can  do. My senior was in the panic as well, he drives  fast yet safe  and tried his best to talk to me, to comfort me. But i just calm myself, and tears drop alike running tap. I just hope God could listen to my prayers that my baby is safe.
In the clinic, when the nurse called my name, I can hear my own heart beat while siting in front of doctor. Then, doctor brought me for scanning. This time, I am a bit shy, because he is a male gynae, while all this while i insisted to get a female checked, somehow, i couldn't bothered that much as baby condition is much more important than anything. I undergo through vaginal scanning, and what surprised me was, I heard my baby first heart beat. I couldn't believe what i heard, and i double confirmed again, it is really my baby heart beat, doctor showed me the beating chart. And yes, confirmed the baby is safe. Doc advised that is pretty normal to have brown discharge, and he knew I having my first baby. He does understands my nervous came from. In my mind, I'm praying that "thanks God my baby is safe".
I quickly called my husband and informed him about the news, along the journey, i knew he was nervous too. When i told him about the first heart beat i heard, he cried with rejoice. He had prepared the worst scenario when i told him about my first discharge, and now he knew baby is safe with heart beat. We both have a same thought, our baby is naughty. He gave us joy and nervous at the same time, but we were glad baby is safe for now.
Everything is new for a motherhood, just like my blog "a roller coaster life". You never know what is going to happened and felt even you are know the next slope coming forward. 

*MIssing pic* *MIssing pic*

The Start of My Life of Pregnancy

I wonder it is me? Or applied to all pregnant women? Before I knew it present, I drank beer while hanging out with friends, I ate a lot without control, I even fell to the floor while bathing in the toilet (Thanks to the stupid flying insect, making me panic and fell!), it did not felt any pain on me at all, or any different in me. But after got to notice about it present, everything seem changes.
I can't sit, I can't eat, I can't talk, I can't sleep, I even diagnosed gastric pain... I was so awful until I needed to go for gynae check and asked for medicines. I felt like crying especially in the class. I was attending HLA sales training for two weeks, first week I attended without notice it presents yet; while second week is a nightmare to me.... I almost want to give up and go home and rest. I can't control myself at all, and it was doubled in pain especially the class was in frozen coldness (thanks to the centralize aircond system in the building).
I couldn't tell anyone in the class on my condition, as Chinese belief, we can't review pregnancy especially below three months old.
Worst part ever, we are required to attend final "exam" before we were released on field. That week, i almost floating and asking to leave early just to look for gynae. I can't even absorb what was taught in the class... i just wish Friday may come early so I could rest and release. 
Somehow, time flies, and that's the end of my entire course. 

*P/S: I still can eat proper food, and food is still sense fresh and nice to me. After that.... is my worst nightmare ever!

Our First Gynae Check

7 Sep, first check up in Roopi Medical Center. Before that I couldn't sleep at all caused it was too excited, and I thinking for an excuse to skip my HLA training class. At that point of time, nothing is much important than checking out my baby. So I decided to spam a fake sick reason to escape myself.
It was so crowded in the clinic, and I was so much worried in my mind, it was a joyous moment when I knew I'm pregnant; yet, I did not know my baby condition as of time. My hubby told me not to worried, at least we knew pregnancy was a hope to us. To the better or worst, we were blessed to know baby arrival to us.
After 2 hours of waiting, finally my name was called. But Dr. Roopi was in holiday, therefore another old doc (forgotten her name) was going to check on me.
I was asked by few Qs, as such, when is your last period and how long it last. Then, I was instructed to lied on a bed, and doc was taken vaginal scanning on me, it was so scary where I worried it poked on my baby (well, too much imagination as a mommy). During the scanning, it took some time to seek for the tiny sprout. At very first, doctor will ensure I did not having ectopic pregnancy, then, it started look for baby, and finally we met baby. Hubby was sitting behind yet the nurse called him to spot on baby. It was so much complexity of feeling when I saw baby for the first time. At one point, I asked my hubby to pinched me, it is real? It is baby? The joyous couldn't hide from both of us, the amazing of getting to know baby arrival is unexplained. It is happy, worry, anxiety, and lots of planning gonna flew into our mind.
That was the day, where we knew our baby was here. It was blessed with loved.   

The Day We Knew the Presence

The day (6 Sep, 1045pm) where I first saw two lines appeared on the pregnancy test.

Two Lines proven it presents!

That's the brand I used that made me found baby present

I remembered my whole body was shaking and tears were running around at my eyes. Next move, I peak from the toilet door and asked my hubby to looked at the result. Funny thing was, he had no idea what was it about, until he read the instruction book, then, he started gave me a silly funny expression on his face.
At the moment, me and hubby we're thinking maybe the tester was spoil, why not test it later. For that moment, I drank plenty of water to make sure my next urine was here in no time.

First Picture taken after the test, I wonder it is my tummy or my baby?

And finally, two lines appeared in second test. We both were so excited, and I quickly asked my hubby sent me to clinic to verified again. It was getting late and almost approached to 11.30pm. I prayed hard to hope there were clinic opened for 24 hours yet the luck was not there. So we decided to admit emergency at Tropicana medical Center. It was silly... But what to do, we were first time in parenthood, what we want in mind was to ensure baby was safe.
In the hospital, we were filing in a lot of silly imagination. After normal urine AGAIN, we were waiting for the night shift doctor for the news and hope for ultra scanning could take place. However a calm and weird doctor came in and said, don't you know your pregnant after you were delayed from menstruated? I wasn't in accurate period cycle, how could I know? I replied. Then, the doctor shaken his head and walked away leaving me n my hubby for half an hour under shivered cold.
Once the result was ready, the doc walked in and confirmed I'm pregnant. However he advised not to take scanning cos midnight charge doesn't worth for now.
Me and hubby got sketched in our head, a doc who doesn't want to earn money. Weird and funny.
Since at least a real confirmation, me and my hubby happily back home and it was 1230 midnight.
^.^