2 weeks and counting....

With no choice, with not much of complain i can talk about... and yes, blog is the only way i can release my thought in mind, and pain in heart

I visited doc and BFP showed and confirmed on 7 September. But because no sac was found.... that make me a big sad on my face as i don't know what is going on until 2 weeks later. A lot of thing can be happened and i went thru previous experience, it really giving me so much of discomfort

At first, I told doc and nurse that i have discharge. They asked me it is smell, and i can't recalled but sour. So they ask me to put in one big tablet into my vaginal. That is so painful, even it is in but i think it diluted out the next day. Well, i assumed a fail insert. So my yellow, greenish discharge still continue with fluid.

That's created a lot of imagination and GOOGLE remarkably become my daily friend, where i put in every questions that i have in mind. But with yes/no answer, really giving you a damn! Like what is the real answer now!

Furthermore, my mind is like i smell garlic, means morning sickness is here? Then, i crave food at night. While i eat, because i felt i am gaining. So i cry to my husband. Trust me.... i even cry to my husband because of nothing. But it happened for short time... till it sharps pain come.

Well, every as and when, i felt pain in my stomach... (to be exact, one inch below my belly button and one inch on my right). That really making me insane!!!! Mr google told me that it is a sign of ECTOPIC... yes, the most horrify word i would never want to think off. And i have a very high sense of period (AF) is coming soon. Seriously is not even the time i meet the doctor yet, and still weeks + days to go. I really don't know how my mental going to take it.....

I worried something happened inside which i couldnt see. At the same time, worried the "little sprout" not growing, and little heart beat wish we can hear.... Too much of worried in my head and flying around. Gods know what is going to happen next.... Please pray for me....

I need a lot of prayer..... mommy just hope you are healthy and fine, till May to hug you in person with bless and love to give you.